2021.10.21 23:40 redshoes666 No Point
I don’t expect anyone to see this, because nobody ever sees my posts, but sometimes it just feels good to get it out there.
I don’t feel like there’s really a point to my existence. I don’t have anyone close to me except for a couple of online friends I’ve never met irl, some family members, and my partner. My partner finds it easy to reach out to and connect with other people. Most other people I’ve met do too. But I feel like when I try to connect with other people I often get ignored, or quick polite conversation-ending responses. I feel like I am always the one to initiate anything, even with old irl friends, and I’m just sick of trying. In irl conversations I’m too quiet and get spoken over and generally overlooked constantly, even when I try to speak up. I am told all the time that my presence online seems confident, sexy, and successful, yet I have nothing that proves any of that to be true. I feel like something is genuinely wrong with me. Maybe I’m on the spectrum and don’t quite realize it or maybe my social anxiety is too bad or maybe I haven’t met the right people yet, but I can’t seem to be able to form a connection deeper than polite friendliness with anyone I meet. I’ve tried bumble bff and different groups, and though I’ve met a couple of nice people and hung out a few times, I either get more surface-level type interactions or I get bored because nothing ever goes anywhere. I am terrified of dying alone, but I’m starting to have a massive aversion to people in general and am more and more inclined to stop even trying. I never thought I would be this lonely.
I hope you’re all having a good night.
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2021.10.21 23:40 DHG_Alt2 (17) Trying to meet some people, been alone for a while. Text if you want
Hi, I was wanting to meet someone since I'm lonely. Anyways I'm 17 almost 18 and I live in US. I mostly enjoy games, youtube, politics and circuitry. I don't mind people with other interests but preferably be 13-19. If you want to talk then send a request, that's all, bye.
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2021.10.21 23:40 Individual-Visual-66 data140 + cs70 vs cs61c + cs70
trying to not die next semester even though i probably will. i'm thinking i'll need a B- or C+ to declare CS. i plan to take ee126 down the line but i heard data140 is a really great class that prepares you for upperdivs, and Adhikari is also amazing at teaching. however, i heard data140 and ee126 overlap in terms of material, so maybe it's redundant to take both. i'm just trying to learn the content really went since i heard probability is important for research. i also want to start taking stat upperdivs like stat 135, which have 140 as a prereq
the workload for cs61c + cs70 is insane tho and basically everyone told me don't take these together. however, i'm not sure what else i can take with 70, and i also heard it's good to take cs61c early so you can start taking other upperdivs. i've already taken data 100, ee16a and ee16b
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2021.10.21 23:40 rayden-shou Why there is an antiChizuru-ship movement
Short story, for the last few months, some people haven't been really content with what has been happening with the main girl of the series, causing people to break the ship between Kazuya and her (maybe in adition with a replacement)
Why is that?
For starters, even if you don't or won't wanna believe that, mostly comes from a place of empathy. Empathy for the dumbass main character known as Kazuya.
Even if the grade of appreciation for him may vary from person to person, at one point you can at least recognize that the guy is not someone bad at his core... for most of the part (Reiji, that bullshit of how he drools for Chizuru and/or any female on a 4km radius needs to stop, you're either jacking off to your own drawings or maybe you think it's funny, it's not)
The thing is that genuinely you can tell that he's a nice person and as such, he's worth of someone who is as invested in a relationship as he is, it's a matter of balance... and Chizuru is not that person, and that is a big problem.
First, let's make some points clear:
- Just because Chizuru is the destined partner of Kazuya because the author said so, doesn't mean you have to agree with that, specially with 200+ chapters of material that barely justify that, Kazuya dies to be with her, but not the other way around.
- The existence of a, much better, healthier and more normal secondary relationship that involves him with another girl, serves as contrast to use as a parameter to easily see why Chizuru and Kazuya don't really make that good of a couple, this is way the Sumi-ship posts have been a thing in the first place.
- Questionable values from the author: one can start the inner argument that it could be rotten from the start, but the problems that both of them present may never be corrected, because said author is unlikely to see them, prime example is the waifu culture that washes Ruka's attitude so she never has to face a proper correction for her actions, none of the girls are never wrong, because they're super cute and it's your fault if you can't embrace them.
- The popularity of the manga and her main heroine, also making unlikely for the writer to, if it was the case, change the course of the story and give the characters an appropiate ending.
- In the real life, even those couples that could be seen as perfect together (obviously I no longer think so about those 2), if the conditions are just not there to keep them together, they won't be, sometimes is just like that, and Chizuru has put everything from her part to erradicate those few chances.
So let's imagine if Kazuya was one of your friends, in any capacity, for whatever reason you have the metaknowledge that we have as readers of a manga, and then he asks about his situation or whatever, so what some of us are proposing is: "with all of your faults and good points, and using my own criteria, you shouldn't have to put up with her shit, dude. She doesn't respect you, you've tried to make things clear 2 times and everytime she's given you her back, knowing exaclty what you wanted to do, but not caring in the slightest. Even if she likes you, it's not enough to not let any other girl get between you two, for any lame reason, but the thing is whatever you have to say doesn't matter, that's why she never asks you directly"
One of the things that comes, very commonly and casually, as an argument to keep those 2 idiots together is that Chizuru needs him way too much for what has happened to her... but, he's been doing that without the chance to be her boyfriend, there's no actual reason to believe that Kazuya needs to be there 24/7 to support her, given his personality, he will most likely continue doing that, but at least he can save money, he's not her only client, Chizuru will be fine economically and emotionally.
So, taking that aside, there's not one good reason to believe they need to be together just because Reiji said so. It's been like 2 months since Chizuru heard him say, loud and clear, "I love you", but she just won't get her mind and do something about it.
Other things to consider are that, usually, Kazuya feels like this when he's with Chizuru:
- Miserable (once the things get kind of real between the two, not those early stages of their dates when he's just drooling over her for whatever reason)
- Out of place
Now, you may say that she corrects him and makes him move away from those complexes, but you can actually see that the way it's done is more oriented to a professional point of view, than his personal growth, because you can see that those things usually come back, because they never left, but he might be more secure on the things that involve doing a job.
So, in the practicality of the mechanics in their relationship, you have Kazuya in one side, always putting every ounce of his to give something, and on the other there is a unbreachable obstacle that never lets go, and is very debatable if Kazuya should be doing that to begin with, but for the sake of the argument we say it might be ok, for a time, but he can't be doing that forever, and Chizuru doesn't give any signs for when she might start reaching for him herself.
Their relationship is uneven, it's unbalanced, after around 1.5 years, it's time to start to let go.
And Chizuru only starts to get worse and worse, she didn't have to tell Mami that she actually loves him, but given the ammount of crap she was saying about him, you have to at least defend him, he's not there to defend himself, if you're not a real couple, one could have said that you were confidants at the very least, but she let Mami shit all over his image without saying nothing.
Kazuya can bring to her all the support and economic resources she needs, but at very special moments, that can be used as tests to gauge how healthy their relationship is, we get a discount and silence.
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2021.10.21 23:40 KlemKaddidleHopper Bad battery? Or…..?
Should my Series 4 (GPS&Cell) need a new battery? I have the green snake of death. I’ve completely discharged the Watch and tried to charge it…..no difference. Any input, greatly appreciated!
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2021.10.21 23:40 DudeLeDude TIFU by making a post on social media to cut off everyone
This isn’t as bad as other TIFU posts here, but I do feel the need to share it.
For some background info, I have social problems and suffer from depression. This info will play a big part into what happens. In my freshman year of college, I attempted suicide twice, both attempts were aborted. I reached out for help, but this ultimately made me feel like the dynamics of my relationships changed forever. Many people in my college’s ethnic community are aware of this. I regretted opening up to them because of the consequences.
Fast forward to today at 2 AM, I got sick of how everything went south. Nothing feels real anymore. Everyone feels fake. Everyone looks down on me. These kinds of thoughts raced my head. So I made a post to declare myself an outcast/black sheep of my ethnic community and to tell everyone to forget about me. I now have no friends in college. People tried to reach out to help but I shut them down. There are some people who I share everyday proximity with, so I will not cut them off until I no longer have classes with them.
I go to a college that’s predominantly white and with hella hillbillies. Being an ethnic minority without a community leaves me vulnerable to so many problems. However, feeling numb everyday sort of negates this worry. I don’t have to care for anyone anymore. I was alone from the beginning, and I will always be alone to the end.
As I am writing this, I’m suffering from an episode of depression. It is what it is though, I’ll sleep it off.
TLDR: Cut off everyone and I’m depressed af but I don’t care anymore
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2021.10.21 23:40 EdwardMinecraft69 It gets worse
Original post feel free to givie me some more sympathy I kinda need it https://www.reddit.com/teenagers/comments/qckk5a/someting_awful_has_happened_today/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf
Anyways iids at school are definitely smelling it it’s so embarasing I always get weird looks cuz my stench but it’s so much worse now someone gagged next to me
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2021.10.21 23:40 cummins75 Can someone draw a pair of Otters for a tattoo?
My wife has always wanted a tattoo of two otters to represent our two boys. The problem is she doesn't want them to be cartoon or color like. She wants them to be one lying on its back in the water with the other one behind his side sticking up out of the water. She wants it to be like a drawing or charcoal type. Her birthday is next month and I want to get it for her if I can get a good drawing. Thank you in advance!
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2021.10.21 23:40 prvlad Ноу-хау
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2021.10.21 23:40 Atari_458 Any updates on the Mk8 US delivery date for dealerships? We're 3 weeks into Q4.
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